- Could things have been different?
- May 16th, 2011
I just don't know what to think anymore. Should I never have met the folks I've met? All that's resulted is hardships n' hurts. Also so many problems I can't help with yet I feel the pain of them so strong. I know I shouldn't be feeling this way or thinking like this. It's not my fault all the bad is happening. It just seems as though I'm poisonous to all the good folks I meet. Good, strong friendships dashed against the wall n' shattered to nothing. Like they never existed to begin with. Now a similar thing with a friend's marriage. How long before it's smashed to smitherines, I don't know. I feel like I should just leave these folks lives for good. Get away before more fall to the curse that is me. I tried so hard to turn from my reclusive ways n' make more friends n' care more for folks other than just myself. I know I'm being way too depressed over stuff I can't control. I'm just so stressed out with all that's happening around me n' I just....just wanna hide away from the world n' spare anyone else more pain.